Happy Holidays! (Update in Description!)
Hello everyone! Just thought I'd give you all an update on where I'm at as of December 2021 as things have got CHAOTIC since the last time you saw me.
There's no easy way of saying this - LIFE HAS SUCKED LMAOOOOOO
I broke my tooth, and ended up with six months of dental surgery, which sucked. Basically, to save you the gory details: it went boom and revealed five teeth were held up by a broken jaw and a calcium deposit and the roots were all screwy and they had to do a bunch of careful surgeries about once a week or every other week from Mid-March onwards. It was kind of relaxing in the moment (they get you really high) but also, y'know, painful afterwards.
At the end of September, we got evicted out of nowhere due to landlord neglect of the property after 11 years... and three days after we moved out in November (after months of panic lmao) our old house got RUINED in the biggest flood the province has ever seen. The drains backed up from the creek and completely ruined the basement, and half our stuff which we hadn't moved yet. That includes electronics. My computer is fine - but we lost a lot of stuff and it really f*cking sucks because now it's completely ruined. There's nobody living there, and it may be a teardown.
I can't explain the grief. It's horrible. A place you basically thought of as yours (as our landlords were never around) and it's taken from you due to just how bad they let it get.
We had to move cities entirely, which is not something we planned on doing. I'm still living with my parents (try renting in Metro Vancouver lmao it's like $4k a month) and still disabled, of course. I now live 2 minutes from the ocean - the sea air does help, but the seagulls can suck it. I really, really miss where I used to live. It's about a 45 minute drive. This place is okay, but it's just so suburban and overcrowded. I miss the city I grew up in.
It's been a lot to deal with. I've had to also cope with a lot of death this past year - I had a friend kill herself out of the blue, another died of hospital complications after a fall, and this is almost a year to the day when my great-uncle died of COVID.
Uuuuuuuugh.
The cats are doing okay. Dwellie is an indoor cat now and is loving it. Tux's FELV+ status doesn't mean a darn thing to him, he's as active as ever. Marmalade sleeps on me as usual every night and snores her head off. She's taken to sleeping in my closet during the day.
My room is bigger now, but I kind of hate it. We had a blowfly infestation, one of my windows nearly fell out (this new rental is very old) and we had a gas leak, all in the first two weeks. It's sucked ass.
Openness has been on the backburner, obviously, but it's getting there, everyone knows I'm working on it. But life always finds a way to pass new priorities such as "oh btw you also have mice in the ducts, now" which is like GREAT THANKS LOVE THAT
We're on a big lockdown here locally, due to the ol' Rona. I'm due for my booster very shortly.
I just wish that this new year brings better mental health for all of us. It's been a horrible year for almost everybody and we need to find one bright spot, right?
I hope these holidays are the one bright spot for you all and that you can find some happiness and joy! I found some today in cuddling my cats, eating some good soup I made, and watching the snow fall. It snows a lot here, but not for long. Seaside weather and all.
Happy 2022 (soon!) and I hope it's a completely mundane year that is forgotten as soon as it's over.
